I’ve confronted the challenge every day for weeks now, held my breath and counted to ten—wait a minute, maybe that was supposed to be “take a deep breath.” But if Houdini could hold his breath for three minutes I don’t see how— Anyway, I’ve pedaled hard my bike, maintained reasonable hours and fortified with vitamins. You don’t think that bear behind bars there did anything comparable, do you? I’m well aware of my privilege. That’s not the issue. Or maybe it is, the issue I confront as a tabula rasa in the form of a blackened page. Language can’t be made to function as an eraser. What you seem to see as a man backpedaling out of a cultural inheritance is just one more idler doggie-paddling in the soup du jour. It’s in bad taste to be unthankful, and these days one is expected to commit some act of veiled contrition toward our native brothers and sisters who blazed the trail for us. Buy someone a turkey, set another one free. Franklin thought it should be the National Bird. I digress. For weeks now. But is there any other way to address the wild, today, here? What happens when our beaks and nails are clipped and we’re crammed in grids, fed a steady line of bull? Where is our wild then? except in the vast interior stretches of the human heart? the stretches, the labyrinths, hidden passageways, coves, treacherous outcroppings, dizzy ledges and arid wastes. It’s all there and only there, perhaps, that the wild will be found today, not on any point locatable with a GPS device. Still, I take some comfort in the fact that beyond the best efforts of industry, a boiler will still sometimes explode. It gives us something to work for, and for that I’m thankful. That and the bees haven’t all died yet. Friday, November 18, 2011
One Day Mars! or Bee Thankful
I’ve confronted the challenge every day for weeks now, held my breath and counted to ten—wait a minute, maybe that was supposed to be “take a deep breath.” But if Houdini could hold his breath for three minutes I don’t see how— Anyway, I’ve pedaled hard my bike, maintained reasonable hours and fortified with vitamins. You don’t think that bear behind bars there did anything comparable, do you? I’m well aware of my privilege. That’s not the issue. Or maybe it is, the issue I confront as a tabula rasa in the form of a blackened page. Language can’t be made to function as an eraser. What you seem to see as a man backpedaling out of a cultural inheritance is just one more idler doggie-paddling in the soup du jour. It’s in bad taste to be unthankful, and these days one is expected to commit some act of veiled contrition toward our native brothers and sisters who blazed the trail for us. Buy someone a turkey, set another one free. Franklin thought it should be the National Bird. I digress. For weeks now. But is there any other way to address the wild, today, here? What happens when our beaks and nails are clipped and we’re crammed in grids, fed a steady line of bull? Where is our wild then? except in the vast interior stretches of the human heart? the stretches, the labyrinths, hidden passageways, coves, treacherous outcroppings, dizzy ledges and arid wastes. It’s all there and only there, perhaps, that the wild will be found today, not on any point locatable with a GPS device. Still, I take some comfort in the fact that beyond the best efforts of industry, a boiler will still sometimes explode. It gives us something to work for, and for that I’m thankful. That and the bees haven’t all died yet.
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Ha! This tickled me Mark, though I know it's somber enough, in reality. Nature takes care of itself, and eats its own parts and makes new ones. I take a lot of comfort in that. Things just...live, regardless of how we screw with them--may not be the same things, but I don't think Nature is a very sentimental lass. I like the attitude in this piece--we are clipped and we are 'cabined, cribbed, confined, bound in. To saucy doubts and fears' but since that quote's a few hundred years old, I imagine so have we always been when we allow it. I'm all for roaming the inner wilds, and living as little in and of the city as I can. And I'm thankful I can roam the wild internet and find such reading material as this.
ReplyDeleteI do enjoy the way you write, the way you think. "Where is our wild, then?" you ask, and with reason. You need to find a forest, my friend. You need to run away for a while; or maybe not run, maybe pedal. I couldn't stand to live in a concrete jungle, wall to wall with the other turkeys gobbling their feed. Give me blue skies and tall trees and let me revel in my wild ... even if it is mostly in my mind.
ReplyDeleteHappy Thanksgiving!
Our wild, at least for the last five reading minutes, has been in your wording. This is a kick, Mark. At first I thought it was a narrative on a fella trying to drop weight before the holidays. Then it spilled apart.
ReplyDeleteYou are too hedged in by concrete and feeling the strain. Go visit Cathy.
ReplyDeleteI still have my wild, even if it's all in my imagination. That's okay because that's where I live anyway. :)
I really like the picture above. The guy on the right looks downright unhappy holding the ass end of that turkey. Wonder what else was in his hands...probably nothing to be thankful for.
where is our wild then..? mark, i love the thoughts in this..the paths you take us on with your words..and leave us pondering on..
ReplyDeleteHere is a true expression of decadence. I wonder if you can even see that your casual sarcasm is insensitive to the brothers and sisters you disingenuously acknowledge. How about those who are hungry tonight? You say language can't be used as an eraser. Nonsense! People do it all the time. And you have done it right here with this absurd bit of surrealism.
ReplyDeleteThanks Hedge and Cathy. I grew up amongst farms & fields, was a city boy for a while and now live in a densely populated county. If I could I'd live with a lot of space around me and off the grid.
ReplyDeleteJohn: I'm glad you got a kick out of it.
Laura: That guy on the right kills me! He's thinking: 'Can't believe the shit I have to do. I swear if this thing craps in my hand....'
Claudia: I'm glad I gave you somewhere to wander.
BrainSex: Don't really know what you mean by the eraser bit. And what would you have me do - jump out of my skin, or pretend to be someone else, someone I'm not? Haven't I shown my honest duplicity reflected in the photo? Yeah, I'm an American.
"Still, I take some comfort in the fact that beyond the best efforts of industry, a boiler will still sometimes explode."
ReplyDeleteOne of many lines that just cracked me up. Zany, over-the-top, hilarious, furious, all those things at once. I love the way your mind works, the way your imagination runs wild like this.
I'm thankful the bees haven't all died yet too. That would beeeee bad- I have kids, I saw the movie ;)
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